As Catholics striving to live a life pleasing to God, we often encounter moments of frustration with ourselves. We may feel insupportable, weak, or on the verge of giving up, battling a sense of inadequacy that threatens to overshadow our faith. Yet, within these struggles lies a profound and transformative grace—a grace that leads us to humility and a deeper reliance on God.
The Gift of Recognizing Our Weakness
When we face our limitations and find ourselves discontented with our efforts, we are experiencing a gift from God. This inner dissatisfaction is not meant to discourage us but to remind us of our dependence on Him. As the great spiritual teacher Fénelon advises, it is one of the greatest graces to struggle humbly, to achieve small victories with a sense of spiritual feebleness, and to recognize our utter reliance on God's strength.
Consider the mother who feels inadequate in managing her children’s needs, education, and the demands of daily life. She may think, "I am not doing enough," or "I keep failing." Yet, in her constant efforts, despite her feelings of insufficiency, she is showing immense humility and trust in God. Her perseverance, however weak it feels, is deeply pleasing to Him.
Embracing the Struggle with Humility
It is tempting to wish for a spiritual strength that feels unshakable, a courage that seems invincible. However, God often leads us along a different path, one where we see our faults clearly and feel our inadequacies deeply. Why? Because it is in this weakness that we remain humble.
Imagine a young man struggling to overcome a recurring sin. He prays, confesses, and tries his best, yet he continues to fall. Instead of becoming proud in his efforts, his repeated struggles keep him reliant on God's mercy. Each time he gets back up, he grows in humility, learning to trust in God rather than his own strength.
A Lesson in True Contentment
True peace and contentment come not from our own achievements or feelings of spiritual success but from knowing that we are pleasing God. When we shift our focus from self-evaluation to seeking God's satisfaction, our anxieties fade.
Take, for example, a person leading a parish ministry who feels that their efforts are inadequate compared to others. They may think, "I’m not as organized or as inspiring as I should be." Yet, if they offer their work to God with a humble heart, their efforts, however small, are a pleasing sacrifice. God is not measuring their worth by worldly success but by the love and sincerity with which they serve.
Overcoming Anxiety Through Trust
When we root our satisfaction in pleasing God, there is no room for anxiety. Whether we succeed or fail by our own standards becomes irrelevant when our sole goal is to align our will with His. This perspective frees us from the constant worry of "Am I enough?" because we know that God’s grace sustains us, even in our weaknesses.
Let us recall St. Paul’s words: “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is made perfect in weakness” (2 Corinthians 12:9). This truth is our anchor. God works most powerfully when we are at our weakest, using our struggles to draw us closer to Him.
Living This Truth in Daily Life
To embrace this teaching, start with small steps:
Acknowledge Your Weakness: Recognize your limitations without despair. Say to God, “I am weak, but I trust in Your strength.”
Offer Your Struggles to God: Whatever challenges you face—whether spiritual, emotional, or physical—place them in His hands. Trust that He is working through them for your good.
Seek Satisfaction in God Alone: Shift your focus from seeking self-approval to seeking God's contentment. Ask yourself, "Am I doing this out of love for God?"
Rejoice in Small Victories: Celebrate even the smallest steps forward, knowing they are possible only through God’s grace.
Encouragement for the Journey
Feeling insupportable to yourself is not a sign of failure but a reminder that God is upholding you in His invisible strength. He is teaching you humility, preserving you from pride, and inviting you into a deeper union with Him. Let your discontent with yourself lead you to a greater reliance on Him, and let His contentment be your peace.
Remember, as Fénelon teaches, it is a great grace to struggle and conquer humbly, to recognize our flaws and keep going, not because we are strong, but because God is. Rest in the assurance that He finds joy in your efforts, however imperfect, when they are offered with love and humility.
May this reflection inspire you to see your weaknesses not as obstacles but as paths to holiness. In every moment of struggle, God is inviting you to trust Him more deeply and to rest in the knowledge that His grace is sufficient for you.
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